hello

hello! im  new to this bloogging lark, so bare with me while i get used to.it and somehow get laptop!!)amd it doesnt seem to let me start a new line...anyway who am i? it seems such a simple question but at 30 im inly beginning to figure it out! my life up to recently was  not much a life. wanting to destroy my body for it letting me down, from the age of 5 till a few years ago i was used as a sex object by someome close. i couldnt cope with simple lifes up and downs that for me are extreem, i was crying out for someone to help, not realiskmb.i wasnt ready. i think in the last couple of years, ive changed more than i ever have... the catalyst? being able to speak the secret ive kept inside (and even in some ways from myself) and for ur no longer to be the unspeakable. yes i might have borderline personality disorder, but also im a survivor!